With tired, lifeless eyes,

I look onto this page,

For a time it seemed

things would be getting better

but oh, how time has slipped through my fingers.

I remain a life without life

I drift through the day by thought, but without heart

Does a heart even remain

inside this hollow man?

what of this wilting soul?

My Lord, I've sought you out

I began this journey happy, fervent, and loving,

with my brothers and sisters

Now I drag myself toward you, cold and alone, in darkness

so empty and dry that even this pain does not render a

tear or wince inside of me.

I am nothing but the dust which I crawl through.

How long oh God, how long?

Until I plead you to just take me home.

The contrast makes it worse

To know liberty, life, and love

and to have it taken away

out of my control

Even pain and tears have left me

I can now only feel a glimpse of desire.

God save me

I'm fading