Why is time escaping me so quickly?

I have less than six months left.

What is life and what does it mean?

Is everything just to create another memory?

And what are these memories and the past?

Is it just some thoughts that remain in our minds?

God, give me understanding.

I'm chained to a person that I don't want to be.

I want the chains to be broken

I want to wake up from this sleep

May these words not be in vain,

Forgive me, my faults.

I hate my selfishness, my daze, and the half-hearted smiles.

Help me to deny myself, to accept you.

Let every breath be breathed unto you.

Let my life in every aspect glorify you and show your love

Help me to achieve these goals